Recently, I’ve been thinking a lot about time management and productivity. Aaaaaawwwh yeah… sexy, I know. Now I’m a very organised person but only when I have to be. Working for myself means that I’m in charge of what needs to be done and then getting it done so it’s very useful to be organised. To-do lists, calendars and a clean inbox are very necessary! BUT just because I’m good at something doesn’t mean it’s my preferred way of being. I am much happier and excited about life when I’m being spontaneous and I have the freedom to make last minute decisions or change my mind. Heck, I’m going to New York soon for 2 weeks and I’ve no idea where I’m staying yet and I think I’ll just figure it out when I’m there and THAT EXCITES ME.
So since graduating from university over a year ago I’ve been living in London and freelancing. It’s basically like being a student again. I get to decide my own schedule. I can go out weeknights and not have to worry about getting into the office at 9am. I might be editing a video until 2am but I can go to the cinema in the middle of the day if I want to. What a dream. This has been my life for the last 14 months but recently my attitude towards it has changed. There are obviously some negatives to being freelance but the positives have always outweighed them until recently when they’ve started to get to me a bit.
I eat badly. First of all, buying food and cooking for one is wasteful and expensive. But with my job I have no structure to my days. I’m often out all the time and then the food I do buy goes off before I get round to eating it. I eat on the go when I’m inbetween things and I’ll eat out A LOT (that’s mainly due to the London social life being crazy busy). But I don’t have a routine for when I eat or what I eat and I’ve definitely put on weight (you can’t really tell and I still look great but my boobs always get bigger and so now my bras don’t fit and they’re giving me that double-boob-effect and I can’t afford to buy new bras and then what if I lose the weight and then I have bras that are too big for me…). At this point some of you will be like WTF!? but others will be like YAAASSSS GIRL I FEEL YOU ON A SPIRITUAL LEVEL.
Am I lazy? Because I don’t work a 9-5 and I don’t work shifts I have no idea how many hours a week I work. I’ve never actually counted. And what counts as work? With my job comes this really weird blurred line between business and pleasure. For example, here are things that I do that could be in either category:
- Going to the cinema – technically a leisure activity but sometimes I get invited to premiers and press screenings. Also, I review films in my monthly favourites series.
- Reading books, watching TV shows, watching documentaries – same as above.
- Travelling – first of all I spend a lot of time on public transport going to meetings/events. Does this count!? Also, I go abroad. Sometimes it’s an actual holiday, sometimes it’s a working holiday. Either way, I make travel vlogs and I’ll always be updating Twitter and Instagram.
- Getting drunk with my friends – I have a series called Drunk Advice. Is this not work?!
- Writing blog posts – I don’t earn money from this but I enjoy writing and it’s good to have a portfolio.
Hmmm I hope I’m not coming across as ungrateful because it started to feel like that as I kept writing but you should know that I LOVE my job. It’s just very confusing sometimes. I hope I’m not lazy. I feel like I work really hard it’s just difficult to quantify how hard in terms of time. Part of me thinks if I had more structure in my life I could measure it and be more productive but then I love going to the cinema on my own at 1pm so…
Thank you for reading! I would love to hear your thoughts in the comments. What’s your working style? Do you prefer structure or flexibility? Are you also a freelancer? Give me tips on how to run my life! Haha!